Thursday, May 28, 2009 ,7:55 AM
so long never post le . .sth happen lo ): nobody can understand how i feel , not a single one yet ..... hais , so sadd lo ystd ): sighh . .er jie i miss you !! even tho you choose to leave, hav you ever thought about those who care for you most?ur real blood sister is very worry for you lehs , everybody never gets anuf sleep at all , even me .... send u goodnight mas but do you think im sleeping? without hearing your chit chatting voice on my bed beside me ): till you gone i e\then dare to let all my tears flow .... even now , you all can still see a happy me , im not ... rare ppl can understand how i feel, do you know wats e feeling when you're looking at your close sibling to leave in front of you ? the car drove off & i start to yell your name in my heart....er jie : if you got remember my link, please read this alrights ? i promise u : i will study , i won't be bad girl , i won't do anyth bad to let me have a baad report for my probation , i will not do bad things , i will try to quit STH tht u always say me , i will not pon schl even if mood good or not i won't pon , i will SPEND MORE time with jiejie they all , if guardian go market in e morning, i will wake up & pei her despite wat time it is , i will always remember wat you've told me ... even tho we always bicker and bicker like never ending game like tht , i will still hope tht jiefu will giv u a better life....even tho u wanna work but dun overdo it u need to sleeep well ok? u want go diet isit? go california gym ba, i got membership card de , i went thr b4 .... last but not least , i will work hard on my F&N , hoping to meet up regularly ok? i really miss your bickering, if i post so long , i think if now you are beside me, you will be rushing me to let u use le ba ? can u just scold me : ta ma de like you always did ? i really feel wierd & i think e keyboard is very wet now? hai, IMISS YOU . dear congcong & many more friends : i'm sorry if i cant spend more time with you all le , esp congcong, hope tht u can understand me more ba, even sometimes i too busy to pei u , i think u still got other ba? must be independent le yea? sigh, i need to spend my time with the family alr, to keep them continue ... of not everybody in my house will be collapsing soon ... i'm reallly sorry !! i cnnt waste any more time alr ... study,family,court reviews,bad report,all this prob ... omg , maybe i shall collapse too ? i found out that , i had neglected my guardians & da jie .. i'm sorry for being a useless gal .. i'm a naughty gal , jux like wat u all always say me : si xing bu gai but now can u all just gimme a chance to prove to you all that actually i'm not that bad too, i know that the trust is somewhat lacking, i only hope to use this opportunity to prove to you all that i, chan ruo heng can change . i can study de , it's just that i'm lazy .. i will study & prove to you all de , those who supports me i appreciates hat, those who don't , i won't bother much , even if i had to sacrifice my time , things , i don't mind.....so stress !Labels: dont leave me, er jie ):