departed memories x/3

在我心里，我隐藏了许多不快乐的事，没人会理我怎么想。我好想死了一了白了 :(

2009-07-28T05:39:00.000-07:00

Hi. I'm back. Sigh. recently there is many things bottling up inside my heart. I won't show my emotions. I dun trust, becos,, there's still none who know me tht well. ues it might be have. But not much? Anyway, if one day, i disappear, dun panick, i'll be watching u above yeah =X ... Seriously, i feel very very very tired already, many - thoughts flowing thru my mind, its not tht i think too much, its sth right in front tht i could see it..with my own eyes.. I dun feel like elaborating it further..LOLS! 　　ｓｉｇｈ．．　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｄｕｎ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｍｙｓｅｌｆ　ｉｎ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｗａｙ　！

Today, reach school at about 11+am(dun need to say wat thing)
After school, went to grandlink meet jiejie(s), Geor, charlene & many more lo..
Went home at about 7+
I'm sick and tired...f*** this world =X Born me out for f*** ? Wanted to see me emo-ing / crying? kanasai lahs.. Grrrrrrrrr, MOODSWING！ｉｓｅｒｉｏｓｌｙ　ｎｅｅｄ　ｍｏｏｄｓｗｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｃｏｎｆｕｓｅ　ｙ　ｏｕｔｅｒ　ｅｍｏｔｉｏｎｓ　ｙｅａｈ　．．　ＢＹＥ-.-

the blog is half dead

2009-07-23T09:09:00.000-07:00

hellos. sorry, was really lazy to post anything recently ..
having alot of moodswing too..
Today is really an unlucky day for me ! Early in the morning, my socks was confiscated, my hairband, ny leg band, my ring, my ear ring ETC.
After school, my WHOLE BAG PLUS my PHONE was KEPT WITH MRS TAY WTF ! _-_ Fcuk lahs! DL ..
went to meet jie at 343, she asked me ; want go northh cc / grandlink
i said grandlink! and i exhanged a very positive condition with her. i did my comprehension ^^ after tht went to GL play audi...2h plus?
And went to the drain there, sigh, memories flow :( nevermind .....
goodbye!

wish came real true

2009-07-13T07:51:00.000-07:00

HEHEHE ! short cut =P
hmmm, went to lrc
waited jiejie, 2 weili ~~& HIM~~ x3
they pei me go pasiris do sth? >< hehe.. jie pierced her right ear (i abit blurr, i forgot left or right?)
i am so happy ^^ i thought it will be very pained? no it isn't ! hahaahahs ~ i'm waiting for that piercing to season =x
jiejie cheer up le okay? ^^ i don't want to see u as my closest to be sad sad de ok? we will have fun on 190709 de (: iloveyou <3

我要 pierce

2009-07-09T08:08:00.000-07:00

i wanted a piercing . i just wanted it ^^ SOMEBODY, I BEGG YOU 就给我打吗, 我真的不会在打别的地方处了耳剁和那里了. 十个理由我是想不到, 可是已经有几个了吧? (sobsob) PLEASEEEEEEEEE

我想说的真心话

2009-07-08T06:24:00.000-07:00

I didn’t went to school these 2 days. I might be going back tomorrow J hehe . I missed jiejie, though it’s only one day L sigh . . .currently very moody something kept bothering me these few weeks. . . Hmmm tomorrow will be going back to SANA(Singapore anti narcotics association) I missed Rachel a lot! I wonder how’s her work? Finally can get to see her tomorrow, and also can play pool with her again … jiejie don’t worry, we will be watching movie together on Friday yea, don’t forget okay?i think Thursday also might not be able to meet you . Loves~ oh, SOMEBODY feeling better now? Hope that the SOMEBODY will be happier nowadays yea =X SOMEBODY do remember that I’m still alive, I still will be there for the SOMEBODY <3 If the SOMEBODY is reading it now, hope you will be more happier now …SOMEBODY, I think you better don’t continue to read okay? Oh shit

Aw, I missed my PO hmmm, I wonder what will she be doing now 0.o sigh ~ I bet my VPO, will be damn busy too How can a banker be free during weekdays? Hai …. I simply feel so boring yeah.

A relationship without any feelings, can this be continued? Oh my god, I really need help and useful advices. i'm really feeling so bad about this r/s you know? he doesn't even know how I’m feeling anyway -.- I sometimes feel irritated by certain things he do -.- oh dear, wtF*** ! I'm so vexed up you know?! I don't think there will be anybody that who can really understand how am I feeling right now … I cannot break up with him as I’m afraid that history might repeat itself again…almost wanted to jump down from a feeling -.- Even though I’m just 15, at least I know how to think. Just that sometimes I don’t know how to express how am I feeling … I really don’t know how or what to say … Just to give an advice ; LOVE CANNOT BE FORCED . I will be going berserk if I continue this “no feelings relationship” with him -.- I really don’t know why I agree to patch back with him -.- maybe it’s for the things he’d done for me? If is that case, I think I’m just feeling sympathy for him? I really hope that god will create a scene that I can break up with him soon . . . I just don’t want this R/S to be continued -.- I’m sorry if there’s a day I break off with you(again) And this time I seriously don’t want to patch back or whatever -.- I just don’t have much feelings for you -.- 很反感你知道嗎? Bet you won’t get what I’m trying to say yeah . Yes I love sweet moments, but you must get it right! It’s not that you need to be VERY close to me, It’s not that you aren’t good enough for me! It’s the FEELING you know? I really did try to search feelings for you, but I can’t ! I appreciate for the things you’ve did for me, I’m very touched, I admit it. But, I really cannot find feelings… I’m really trying my best! Yes I need time. But it’s enough time boy, if I continue to be with you, 我們是不會幸福的 . . . I really need a break, my eyes is getting pained . Amen ><

tired

2009-07-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

woke up in the morning around 10.30 today =x i have no plans to go anywhere at all because i didn't plan (: but it's okay, because my da jie bring me to my guardian's office. Meet them to have lunch together :P after our lunch, we went to suntec city as my guardian complained that my wallet is getting a little black? LOLS then we really headed there in the end ^^ they brought me to the arcade there and watch me playing my na shou ; arcade guan lan (: hehe, i'm very lousy de la :P hahahahahahas (;
after that jiu went to jie's house there, then go to SP together, met baby and many more, played swing (: sian, tomoro gotto go school again -_- nevrmind lahs, go study lor
SOMEBODY PLEASEEE, cheer up kays <3 i will be standing by your side always && forever, hope that the SOMEBODY know who am i trying to tell yeahs .. love you la SOMEBODY

fun

2009-07-04T07:51:00.011-07:00

went to play audi today . went to CC today . went home after that, but it's a special day today! you want to know why? HAHA, kat jie send me home! i was like, huh you serious? then in the end, we really sit all the way till my house there lo. . .so funny ^^ actually planned to bring her to the park there, but in the end, we went to look at my house there de 'modern' house :) haha, soooo fun lor . . .after that i went home, took hair dye for her && lemon barley ... chit chat a while.... && i send her back to the bus stop again, accompanied her to wait for bus there ^^ seeing her tomoro after church ^^ that's all for today >.<

:(

2009-07-02T19:50:00.000-07:00

was late for school today due to my sleeping skills ^^ sighh , never gotto meet kat jie ystd :( sad lors .... things happen in school ystd ..... not free to say ...... friend, take care .... don't always pon ten na ^^

it's fun in school (:

2009-06-30T17:34:00.000-07:00

hellooos, i'm back to blogging once again :) hmmm, guess what? i'm at school computer lab now ..... while doing my F&N coursework, i'm tempted to blog by : ee eng heehee ... she said that this will be the best time to blog .... actuallt i don't really cares, but after a little while i think i better post something, better than letting it rot ... later kat jie say my blog smelly again haha ! first, i just hope that meiqi(K) don't sad le okay ? i know how you are feeling right now, it's okay to feel that way ... i can only say , be strong girl, you still have us ... we won't leave you alone like whoever did .. you must overcome it okay ? hmmm, i think i ran outta things to say ... sigh, i miss my vpo a lot ): and my po .. i wonder how are u both doing right now .. my vpo, she's a busy person, sometimes i find it hard to tell her certain things .. hehe but it's okay, i understand your work is superrrrrrrr busy (: sighhh ... i don't wish to get a home visit ! omg ~ father u must save me , amen ^^ girl, how are you ? when are you going back to school again ? just wants to tell u that, come to schl ba.. don't avoid things? idk y you dont want to go, but but, hope you go schl , study lor ......

hui lai le lahs

2009-06-27T07:17:00.000-07:00

hi. im back le .... finally right? later kat jie say my blog smelly lerhs ^^
i short cut baas ...

went to SP bcos CC was closed due to an event held over there
hmmms, sweet sweet lor...
i finally can cycle le man ! no presents ma ? 2 round of sun plaza park lehs ! this is only the second training i gave myself... (claps) hehe

my friend, even tho we are not sisters, perhaps being an ordinary friend might be good >.<>

FCUKED-UPPED

2009-06-11T07:36:00.000-07:00

hello i'm finaly back yea ! today went to CWP : changi women prison as my PO assigned me to go for this programme ._. i cannot defy ma == roar !! let me elaborate in short cut before i break the computer key board with anger

this is the worse day of my life -.-
being trated 99.9% like a prisoner/DOG there -.-
when having lunch, there's cabbage on the dirty floor -.- , i picked up e food then put back on e plate for kindness -.- LOL the officer SCREAMED as me & my partner was the last pair to eat finish the linch-boxed food ... the indian officer :" WHAT THE HELL IS THAT CABBAGE DOING INSIDE IN THE BOX? " my partner : " the cabbage is dirty because just now dropped on the floor(in a scared scared voice) the indian officer :" THEN?! DO U EXPECT ME TO HELP U TO EAT THAT?!?!" THE fking officer SCREAMED at me :" WAT ARE U WAITING FOR?! EAT LAAAA ! i looked at her controlling my tears but i veryvery guai lan out of control ... i SAID : " DROP ON THE FLOOR LEH !" ( I KEEP LOOKING AT HER AS IF SHE OWE ME A MILLION DOLLARS LIKE THAT) THE OFFICER : " U BETTER EAT IT BEFORE I GET'S REAL MAD !!!! " MY TEARS FALL OFF MY CHEEK ...(I FORCE MYDSELF TO PUT THT CABBAGE INTO MY MOUTH, and THROW THE SPOON ON THE LUNCHBOX) I SWALLOWED IT, AS THE WHOLE LUNCH, I DIDN'T BITE A SINGLE IT ....THE FKING OFFICER SAID : "HOW DARE YOU THROW THE SPOON?!! IF U WERE THE PRISONER , I WOULD HAVE SLAP U !! " i said(I GAVE SUPER INNOCENT LOOK ) : HUH??OHHHS" THE INDIAN OFFICER:"WHAT SHD U SAY?" I ANSWERED : " HUH?!" (she superrrrrrr FED - up) the officer say : "wat are u suppose to answer in?" I SAID : " HUH !! ORH OKAY, "SORRY MAAM -.-" the indian officer use her finger to point at my face while scolding, then i give her suoer pathetic face and a super guai lan attitude {U ALL KNOW WAT? WHEN I WENT HOME, I VOMITTED THREE TIMES X_X} I HAVE GROWN SO BIG, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I GETS HUMILATED.... what i want to tell ppl is that , don't commit a crime ! prison life is worst than wat you all imagine a million times..if u dun believe me, u can try....even its a real life programme for me....i've already going to become berserk ........ i just wants to share w u that, "think twice before u all make a decision, everything u do does hav a consequence ! " sighhhhhhhhh.....i really hated today, but, it really make me reflect and i won't want to commit another offence ...chances is rare, i promise i will cherish it every now and then )= om really super hurt inside ... nobody understand e humilation i gets today, FKING MAKE MY EMOTION GOES HAYWIRE...sry to my guardian and da jie )= because im really veryveryvery emotion hurt laa then u all say me...i will remind if tht FKING officer de lehs , thats why i DAMNDAMN fierce to u all =X because i tolerated there veryvery long le, u all should know me well ! WO SHI CHI RUAN BU CHI YING DE *** luckilly the indian officer never insult me, because u shd know wat i will do yea ? i confirm shout back and start to say da dao li le, becos im not a prisonner, i just go there for a pgrm, dun need to be so mean yea ?! SUPER FCUKED UO LAAAAAAA KANINA ! CCB ! PCB ! LCB ! si pu bor , qiong gan na ! DIU LEI LOU MOU ! BAKERO ! puki makaw peh besar ! CHITSU ! BARBI ! BAKA INU ! DOG ASS ! SHIT ASS ! COW SHIT ! MY SHIT ! FUCK YOU ! FUCK OFF ******************* ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

2009-05-30T07:52:00.000-07:00

hmm, nothing to post ehs =X today went to 137 at about 10 plus ba, then went to baby's house as nana led me go ... aft that jiu go expo luhs, really have fun there, && the food fair there . .lols , quite fun lahs, eat without paying , get wat i mean ma? sample la ^^ hahahas, soooo damn many people go there lahs, && the train is like, WTF : so many people =.= i see the escalator jiu scared liao lahs, people like coming non-stop like that de seh :P hmms then after that jiu went back to 137 find nana a lil'l while to see how's she luh ... sth happen to her bahs, make her fking moody-.- hope she's feeling better now ba , okay that's all, take care peoples ~ !

2009-05-28T07:55:00.000-07:00

so long never post le . .sth happen lo ): nobody can understand how i feel , not a single one yet ..... hais , so sadd lo ystd ): sighh . .er jie i miss you !! even tho you choose to leave, hav you ever thought about those who care for you most?ur real blood sister is very worry for you lehs , everybody never gets anuf sleep at all , even me .... send u goodnight mas but do you think im sleeping? without hearing your chit chatting voice on my bed beside me ): till you gone i e\then dare to let all my tears flow .... even now , you all can still see a happy me , im not ... rare ppl can understand how i feel, do you know wats e feeling when you're looking at your close sibling to leave in front of you ? the car drove off & i start to yell your name in my heart....er jie : if you got remember my link, please read this alrights ? i promise u : i will study , i won't be bad girl , i won't do anyth bad to let me have a baad report for my probation , i will not do bad things , i will try to quit STH tht u always say me , i will not pon schl even if mood good or not i won't pon , i will SPEND MORE time with jiejie they all , if guardian go market in e morning, i will wake up & pei her despite wat time it is , i will always remember wat you've told me ... even tho we always bicker and bicker like never ending game like tht , i will still hope tht jiefu will giv u a better life....even tho u wanna work but dun overdo it u need to sleeep well ok? u want go diet isit? go california gym ba, i got membership card de , i went thr b4 .... last but not least , i will work hard on my F&N , hoping to meet up regularly ok? i really miss your bickering, if i post so long , i think if now you are beside me, you will be rushing me to let u use le ba ? can u just scold me : ta ma de like you always did ? i really feel wierd & i think e keyboard is very wet now? hai, IMISS YOU .
dear congcong & many more friends : i'm sorry if i cant spend more time with you all le , esp congcong, hope tht u can understand me more ba, even sometimes i too busy to pei u , i think u still got other ba? must be independent le yea? sigh, i need to spend my time with the family alr, to keep them continue ... of not everybody in my house will be collapsing soon ... i'm reallly sorry !! i cnnt waste any more time alr ... study,family,court reviews,bad report,all this prob ... omg , maybe i shall collapse too ? i found out that , i had neglected my guardians & da jie .. i'm sorry for being a useless gal .. i'm a naughty gal , jux like wat u all always say me : si xing bu gai but now can u all just gimme a chance to prove to you all that actually i'm not that bad too, i know that the trust is somewhat lacking, i only hope to use this opportunity to prove to you all that i, chan ruo heng can change . i can study de , it's just that i'm lazy .. i will study & prove to you all de , those who supports me i appreciates hat, those who don't , i won't bother much , even if i had to sacrifice my time , things , i don't mind.....so stress !

2009-05-21T19:10:00.000-07:00

wow , welcome to a dead blog yeah !! hahahs, NOT FEELING well recently so never go to school luhs =P hahas, secret lahs, don't wish to say la .. hmm, now at the computer lab lo , hesitating whether should i drop F&N or not lehs, my only ppl that can guide mi this subject is only my er jie lor, but .................. confidential ................... sigh, i am not good at drawing too . .what subject can i really hold onto ?? OMG i'm really stressful man ~ ! tsktsktsk .. hmm .. ilove 21may2009 9.16PM hahas ! <33333333333>

2009-05-13T05:14:00.000-07:00

i am back luh, finallt uhh :) hahahs, tyco can use already .... hmm, recently having MY exams , wa seh headache siol , ohmygod !! tsktsktsk, somehow found a goal in my life currently , hee , close all my face piercings liaos, as my goal cannot have ant piercings de, && some reasons luh ... sighh, today went to 137 lor ... ONE person fiannly back , hahas ... shall stop here before they nagnagnag le, take care oo !!

lols-.-

2009-05-05T07:45:00.000-07:00

my blog is dying yea ? :( today never g0 to skool uhhs -_- number one , i am sick number two ,went to meet nana lor .... bring nana tuh sana to see her precious boyf luhs ... and i thought rachel will be there le , in the and i waited her lor , quite long lahs sigh , when i reaches thr , i was like remind of HIM ; joverst then i just pretend nothing like tht lor , was having fun , played pool , table soccer w stephen ...hmmms , while hitting the punching bag that time , i accidentally hurt my fourth finger la .. so pain , hai ...i only wanna vent out my anger lahs , c0s of him lors .. ohmygod lahs , thts the deepest ive ever hurt among all my fingers la ! grrrr if he still w me i think he will feel pity for me de ba ? idk lahs , miss you , really >shall stop here le , BYEEE

i am emo

2009-04-28T07:10:00.000-07:00

hell0s people , my blog seemed dead like my heart do . .well yesterday , sth happened to me , nade me cried prolong ! HE had left me , ii am once again single this time , ii feel more hurt , more sad , more worry bout any relationship i am afraid tuh be hurt again , hello is the easiest thing tuh say , not goodbye ! well . he wun know how ii am feeling de lahs , so ruthless jiu break , watever lor ! now you are gone , i still miss you , cried for you , but nobody cann feel how am ii feeling seriously there is still nobdy lahs , zz what the hell ! i no mood le lahs go back EMO le , take care ppl ! loves loves !!

2009-04-22T20:49:00.000-07:00

hell0s ^^ now at th lab there luhs -.- bored bored !! ohmygod hahahas =P hmms , today after skool got F&N practical siol , dunno cook wat mushrooom soup ,, not instant de lahs obvious lor . wahahahs , mr lee not looking at miie , lols . .yesterday went tuh MCYS for the survey . .so happy lor , baby waiting for me at tje bus stop when i reach there :) damn happy when saw him man !! while after tht , when go in not long , ii was standing beside baby ma , saw ms chen OMG ! ii take one step behind , hahahas , think she saw it le ba ?? i duno lehs :X omg , then when ok le , there was another time , we atanding tgt tht time , then baby time tuh saw his PO ; ms skye low ? i duno how to spell lehs =P now really must study hardcore le lor , but soooooo many LRCs , how am ii suppose tuh serve finish ehs ? haiis !! ii planning after all this rubbish LRCs ii wanna stay back in skool , veryvery often tuh ask many diff subjects teachers tuh guiide me along , in : maths , phsics , chemistry , social studies , then my F&N i wil chiong myself de butbut ! bef0re ii really go work hard before ii chiong , i always hav ONE person in my mind whem ii wanna continue my next step , hahas , the person will know is him or her-self de lahs :) hais , ii only will worry , how she/he thinks ba , duno will be positive or negative lo ... mr lee is looking liaos , byeeeee

2009-04-21T07:56:00.000-07:00

hell0s ! i finaly can use computer luhs ^^ shiok uhs (: hahahs , hmms recently quite sian de bahs , weeee tomoro can see baby at MCYS luhs , hahahs , not reporting , is a follow up programme talk , ahahs , tht time i shocked luhs , i thought wat bad news lo -.- hehes , wa , ii goin tuh visit changi prison in june wor , dum0 can go cambodia anot lehs , bc0s my PO nid tuh submit tuh court f0r approval see whether can i go or not luh , sighh ~ hopefully cann go bahs , && hope wun clash with the visiting of changi prison bahs (: shall stop here le

2009-04-16T19:25:00.000-07:00

sibei dulan siia !! idiot ah poh confiscate my ear rings , tongue stud , hairband -.- " abit argue w her , nabuay lahs , i really cannot express how ii am feeling right now luhs ..... i have been tryinig tuh control my temper le lor , cb make my veiins tied up && feel like just killing her ? wakarimasen lahs !! ni nabuay , simply hate it when they nobody t0 catch thens wann AIM me izit ? HUH KNN las . .FCUK OFF !! make my blood boil only ladey !!
ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ~ !!

2009-04-14T18:02:00.026-07:00

hell0s . ii am back , finally luhs , but ii am in the skool computer lab luhs -.- zzzzz , now listening mrs chan kpkb =X ii also cannot everytime use com inside my house mahs , sighhhh ~ ! hmms yesterday quite bored lahs , but still ok luhs :) teehee . .after skool slack awhile :) zz after tht ii jiu straight away go SANA was having alotalot of funn =P chat with Rachel when reachedd there , soooooo HAPPY lo cann see her agaaiin !! weeeet ~after our secret chats we jiu play pool at there luhs , keep losing her siol :( but thens nehmind lahs , sge got put water f0r miie lahs , but thens ii jux know how tuh play onli ehh . .even you put water le , ii still abut noobnoob de , only when playedd with Ryan thens win him tyco de , bec0s when last game , onli left the only black ball on t he table , and we keep on cnt shoot in then finally ryan accidentally hit the black ball with the white ball in together lo read ge0rs blog . .she was right , if val jie was here by her side , she will n0t be so bored , she must have been disturb by her till jia jia lat luhs , sigh ~

2009-04-11T19:47:00.001-07:00

hell0000000s ii ma backk finally yeahiie hahahas hmms recently foundd out tht ii am wastiing s0me times tuh delay my time tuh become nearer tuh mye goals ehhs sighh hope that many friends can know what they wanns in their lifee luhs even thoughh ii still dunn0 wat ii wann but thens nehmind ii have a target lahs hoping tuh be back the miie tht ii used tuh be one last year as in the type tht ii cann pass my examz de miie luhs but ii will still have fun but lesser sumimasen sorry tuh those ppl tht ii cant realli pei ni men tuh hav fun tht much luhs bc00s now ii reallly wann tuh concentrate on my studies first paisehh uh if you all can understand wat i really wan you are really a true friend le all ii ever seek is the understanding of my friends thats all ii ever wanted for now

2009-04-07T18:05:00.045-07:00

my blog is so dead luhs (; finally back luhs ^^ hmms baby go back tuh hostel uhs .. sadd siia , miss him really badly , i reallly wish he faser release from hostel lo !! zZz yesterday was really suay day for miie && ge0r , hahas =P but thens she more ke lian bahs (; yesterdat mye po cum my house && with my vpo luhs .. my guardian complain && keep nagging luhs , boredd siia ! but thens nrhmind luhs it ok forr miie de mahs ^^ this friday mye vpo meet miie at 2pm sharp but thens still haven confirm wanna meet at wehr luhs =P ii thimh tat she very friendly bahs && ii wun bullly her de luhs ^^ nice tuh noe you : vpo =)

2009-04-04T19:57:00.001-07:00

=X haiis , need wait f0r his next home leave thens cann see him lors =P but thens nevermind ii cann wait for him tuh discharge de , no matter how long izit (; 1 month , 10 years , 100 years oso cann , but duno his heart will fly away anot lehs =X although itts just shortly few days

2009-04-04T19:56:00.001-07:00

hell0s (: ii am back luhs hahas , welcome tuh a happy blog ^^ hehs , 020409 : iloveyou hahs : baby joverst <333 siian ="X">.< , he tomoro go back ler , will miss him like hell =X haiis , need wait f0r his next home leave thens cann see him lors

good or bad day ? 0.o

2009-03-27T03:14:00.000-07:00

hell0s , ii am back again luhs ^^ zZz , webt tuh skool as per normal l0 . .fridae kinda boredd , but ii like lahs , coa cann early release mahs :) weets ~ tsk ,, todat aft skool heard bout a problem . . .agaiin ?? os0 not geor fault right ? why everytime like make till her fault like that lehys ? sigh , f0rhh now we are only normal friends , kp . ii have decided tuh leave thiis rouhtine ); its nort tht ii dun l0ve you or wat ehs , ii juz cann0t continue it lidat lahs , you also kn0w ii dun like th way we are now right ? today aft g0 ica , jiu go 341 lohs , see you at therre ii really dun wan see you , not tht ii wanna avoid you or wat , its the felling tht you gave miie , very wierd lahs , hais , ii really dunno wat cann i do tuh save it lerhs , i am really very tired bout it , this time ii have let you go , ii wun cum back anymore lerhs , ii only wished tht you can last long , wiv any gals but not ; minney mouse i will sure very buay gei yan her derhhs lahs . sigh ~ tomoro programme last day luhs ? for me its not last lo , i kena extend luhs =.= but ii veryveryveryvery she bu de lahs ! i really miss you alot : x3_BEL <33333>

2009-03-25T08:10:00.000-07:00

sian ah today late =.= cos ii forgot to go top up my ez link card luhs , thens ge0r & my nuerh : wenwen pei miie go eun0s mrt thr go top up , we walk there & walk back agains =.= hehs , but in th end still cannot do IC siia , nbcb lahs ! cos the idian gal sy wat the background MUST beWHITE , lawls , early know it willl happen , why not ii jux blanko the back ground white ? thens jiu will save trouble damn fcuked up today after recess time ! GRRRR ~ !!! cb knn !! fucuking hate tht bryan koh l0rs , wat the hell seh him , dare write fake report & say wat i stole his psp CCB! for wat fuck i take your PSP ? you think i dun have izit ? cb , DOG la you , sabo me ti0 SUSPENSION & sabo dao ge0r , kaninabuay uh you ! how dare you did this to us ?! no balls step one got ball uhhs ? wei ! i tell you la hor** : if i am not a probationer , you will WATCH & see la nb cb i confirm got bad skool report this month , i wont letchu off so easily , wat i mean is i will still get you after my probation ends , please hide hor , you shuld know wat i am capable to do , but it all depends on miie whether shd i or shd not to nia , wat do you think ? if you buay gei yan me , dun be a balless freak only know how tuh complain tuh mr lai , cum tork tuh me , i know YOU DAMN fat & smells like a living PORK but you must becareful ayes ! hahas , i can be good , i can be damn bad too , dun step on my tail ^^

2009-03-23T07:50:00.000-07:00

welcome to a dead blog wor !! hahas , soooooo long never update liaos , co somehow lazy && guardian oso dun let miie touuch com mahs ); zZz , finally g0t mye eyebrow pierces =P my wish cum true yeahiie ^^ weeeets . hey you , if we are going to continue to quarrel everyday , BREAK will be the next thing is goin to happen lahs =.= relly v hate youus at times , but now , ii realize tht we actually yi dian dou bu he de lai , sighh ~abit wasted my 11 months siol =X but ii also wanna thank you for a little bit of sweet moment tht all mye ex failed tuh gimme , ii jux dun0 how tuh tolerate you anymore longer lahs ..... anybody can gimme advicee !? i am like a gal who stuck in the middle of the love road , walking in circle and still stuck . .cant really move on bc0s ii only wanted 2 know if this boy is a real man or jux my teenage relationship guinea pig ?

2009-03-12T08:14:00.000-07:00

today dint go to skool ^^ 1: was having bit of gastric pain , 2: cant wake up , 3: absolutely dun feel like goiin skool , 4:went tuh shopshop with mye guardian(closer liaos , not much quarrel lerh) t0day got reporting , my PO tell miie bout my skool report =.= : VERY BAD !!

people i wanna apologise : i cannot pei you all create trouble anymore . if you wan miie tuh pei you all , perhaps , girls home is my next consequences lerhhs . .sometimes if i reject you must ming bai that i REALLY cannot tio watever nonscence in skool as i made a promise between my PO already , i dun wann be like last time keep breaking promises le . sigh , paiseh worh , really seek for understanding =( hais , bout tht camp thingy , one word for it : KANASAI

2009-03-12T07:56:00.000-07:00

hell0s i am back ! hahas , bout that camp thingy(9.3.09 , 10.3.09 , 11.3.09 ) jiu feel like saying it at all , only one thing f0r it : KANASAI !! lols =s sibei kns luhs , ii only love the orang asli water obstacles , hate it when the fking ppl say : " 3 people one bench ! shoulder to shoulder ! eat faster ! dont take your own sweet time ! people who just came in dont take the water yet , EAT first . " like DOG bodoh , i rebell lahs obvious ! na bei , in my life that was one thing ii hate most which is , while eatinh dun keep rushing me la , ccb ! the m0re you rush me , the more purposely ii will eat , SLOWER . and there was damn FILTHY LA ! kanasai bod0h . today never go skool l0rhs ^^ 4 reasons , 1: cant wake up , 2:gastric flu came back 3: shopping with mye guardian , 4th : absolutely dun feel like g0ing tuh skool at all* then taday went f0r reporting , my PO say bout my skool report : very bad !! i think ; people , i duwan have any case after ii finish serving my 10 days of LRC . lols this 10 days was the first case ii made in skool bodoh , very good lia0s , and i shall NOT BE LATE FOR SKOOL ANYMORE dun care wateva reasons , ii really dun wan my skool report not good lor , so , if sometimes ii reject you guys , maybe you all should understand me for my reasons * really appreciate it (= dun be offend ba , cos its my path tuh guaiguai luhs

2009-03-05T06:15:00.000-08:00

s0rt things out with y0u i really feel very much better ^^ remember t0day dats : 050309 our gan congcong (= aini lahs !! mornink dun planned tuh go skool =.= but nid go laas , FCUKING HATE THIS BLOG BODO JUX NOW TYPE MANY THINGS NOW disappear again . duwan waste time retyping agains !@#$@$#%$^ NB laas ccb !! was in trouble with skool ? VP I HATE YOUS ! fk off la dey !!

2009-03-04T05:33:00.000-08:00

siian ! hell0s i am back lia0s !! sigh , never post c0s they never let miie even tuh touch the com lahs NB !@#$% haahs . t0day aft sk0ol slack a while jiu go down tuh 137 liaos then jiu go print photo wiv ge0r . .bef0re that went tuh KFC tuh mum mum ^^ zzz ii really dun0 what tuh say eh ^^ today late f0rh sko0l =X pua stunt liaos dun0 can pian de guo anot luh =X la0gong uhh , stop giving miie attitude can ? if you tell miie then ii will noe waht ii do rught ? you only keep quiiet , how do you expect miie tuh ready your mind ? ii also not ure st0mach der w0rm uhh how wud ii noe lehs ? haiis , but nvm , luckilly we are able tuh communicate and we are oso willing tuh share wats wrong and wats our likes and dislikes ,unlike somebody ? always so quie tht ii dun like =( ppl who know miie shhd noe who ii am refering tuh luhs . shall stop here liaos

2009-03-02T06:48:00.000-08:00

i am t0o sick tuh post lia0s . . =( p0st again other day

2009-03-02T06:40:00.000-08:00

sighs , im sick luhs , t0day duno is gasric or where paiin fr0m ard 9+ till all the way till aft sk0ol thens ok abit uhh )= hais , dhen t0dat aft sk0ol pei la0gong go h0ugang his cousin house there take wine =.= then later f0llowed tuh tampines there we zai fr0m tp there take bus 15 tuh my house there , when reachedd there jiu started tuh rain heavily luhs =.= we went inside the hospital tuh avoid the big rain but in the end we like damn wet si0l =P sft the raiin stop , we walk out as he wanna send miie till near my h0use there zai g0 home uh =) we saw rainbow ! just like the past . around our 4 m0nth like that we also saw the same rainb0w at the same time but in different place luhs ^^ haiis , i think ii shall st-p here liaos , very sick =.=

2009-03-01T06:09:00.000-08:00

i dunn0 what tuh say lahs ^^ just l0ve sunday ? o.0 idk lahs . .wahahahas (= h0pe tomoro will be a good day ! byebye take cares <33

2009-02-28T05:22:00.000-08:00

hell0s im back ! haiis ! yesterday damn b0red , d0 cso agaiin , dhen after tht g0 mit la0g0ng , ge0r dhey all at grandlink =P play audi lia0s jiu g0 h0me , la0g0ng sent miie h0me , this is waht he used to do last time ^^ and he is back to miie again once for all because true love DO continue no matter waht happen recently , thanks to 27426 for letting miie kn0w that actually when ii brk up with kp , it made miie realise that h0w important is him tuh me <3>around 7.00am liddat mit la0g0ng liaos we zai ggo mit ge0r and headed tuh grandlink agaiin ^^ play till around 8.30 ii went off tuh do cso agaiin )= bored siia ! then zai ard 1pm liddat ii went tuh eun0s buy thiings tuh munch on because ii haven eat breakfast yet jiu rush d0wn tuh MCYS f0r my programme about ; SEX =.= its all about that bodo , dunno my po ask miie go for waht siol ^^ they say : love is not = tuh s** , condom is not hundred percent safe . .many things laas !! hear till ii siian bod0h . .th most lame ting ii hear is bout in the swimming pool F*** also WILL get baby w0rhs . .wth l0rhs =.= zzZzZz ard 6plus zaii end siia !! so long lorhhs !! tmr still got idiot tuition , shall stp here <333

2009-02-26T01:10:00.000-08:00

sian lahs t0day . .n0thing to do durhs . n0w i am at home luhs ^^ cos i left cabin earlier because REALLY VERY BORING TODAy , ge0r went tuh grandlink , val g0 aljunied si guan there . .dhen i l0nely g0 h0me by cab because raiiniing cats and dogs lahs wala0 =.= hey b0y ,i think after your test and when you after your common test zaislowly thiink what you really wann bahs . currently eu say wanna be frens , then jiu like tht l0r , ii also cnt say anyth lia0s )= d0 what you wan la hor . .i really love you , but you......lalalas ! what ever l0rs ! zzzz i g0 take nap luh , take care peoples ^^ <333

2009-02-25T05:23:00.000-08:00

yesterday ii tio case . .hmms , ii dunno what can ii say to myself except a very good good good luck to myself * if one day ii am g0ne f0rhh good , to th0se ppl , my sisters , friends ii wanna tell you alll ii really l0ve eu all loads w0rhs !! if let say ii am fine , ii pr0mise eu all ii wont be d0ing silly case or unlucky got caught even ii never do anyth . hey boy , n0w we are friends , wait till your exam over le we see if whether we still can continue it anot , but ii cann tell eu , your feeling sure fade durhs . so all ii wish is hope eu cann find a better girl than miie if eu really wan l0rhs . as f0r miie ? i wanna take this time to cool myself d0wn . im FCUKING stress recently laas

2009-02-23T05:59:00.000-08:00

hell0s im back agaiin . t0day got th test f0rhh ss/history , ii only did ard 4 question then ii fell aslp )= thens after skool went tuh slack awhille wiv val , kat and ah bee while waiting ge0r lrc finish . .if we continue like this , there is n0 point and i dunno what can i say to you anymre le . .mye mood has only got rain and sunny )= no other feeling can bother me . im feeling like kinda stress still )= i really hav no moood to continue luhs . take care ppl

very fan

2009-02-22T04:50:00.001-08:00

sigh , yst and th day ii think ii never post ba )= hais so many thingy happen recently sia ;( crying cannot help to solve the problem ii m facing it now )= i try commiting suicide ystd night haiis , ii really dunno what to do . .t0day went for tuition , heng ii reach there le zaii started tuh rain w0rs , if nit ii will be luo tang ji liaos )= im at lost at words already . .i think i duwanna go to skool tomoro le )= very scared lehs , hais duwanns mention the reason , jux veryveryveryveryveryveryveryvery STRESSED !! ROARRRRRRRRRRRS

2009-02-20T06:00:00.000-08:00

sigh . ystd nbr post )= n0 mood la sigh .....today aft school go do CSO , my second time go , today go clean that stupid window again , but mevermind la . .feed the ah ma taoday ^^ scary siia she suddenly spit sth out , lucky i already prepare to dodge le cos i knew it would have happen =P then sft tht cabbed down 137 mit val , ge0r , ah bee . and meimei and her sisters were there toos . .slackedskacked then go mama shop , buy tibit makan , ahbao help me pay sweet THANK YOU manymany. . but sigh !!!!!!!! sth happen afterwards )= dun feel like saying ....shall stop here

2009-02-18T04:58:00.000-08:00

sigh , treating me like this can benifit you what thing wor ? today late for school , thanks to geor =X jokingjoking ^^ hahas , but i did something stupid which i discuss with her kinda long (; aft skool got daiji , thens i go kaypoh again , but ok la i also part of BBT so whats wrong go seesee looklook ? heehee =P but i didnt get the chance to see full wors =X when i was going home that time , saw a young gal fell down >.<>

2009-02-17T06:32:00.000-08:00

bored day t0day ? never go pE lesson cos got valid reason ^^ hahas i dun thikl i still have the mood to laugh le ); i dont know why ...i understand that now study is important =( i noe uhhs , but seeing you tiring yourself hubby , i heartache for you . your hp strap broken ?maybe or perhaps u never take care properly of it ); idk . but to me i always bring it where ever i go . sigh . ystd did not post cos cant use =X th programe t0day so bored , my programme friend told me an incident , and i dont wish to say lahs , very confuse lor . .i hated my friday ); needa d0 cso agaiin , simply scuks , but bo bian its a court order

sadd );

2009-02-15T06:39:00.000-08:00

ystd mye valentine smashed ><>.< hubby ii miss eu ! * sigh , h0w ii wished eu are n0rt s0 shy ^^ went f0rh tuiton late , mye fcuking tuit0n cher c0mplain c0mplain , c0mplain tuh my da jie and guardian @##$%^#$%^ CCB larhs !! c0mplaiin KING nabei si0l , first tym late s0 long eu jiu lidat ?! s0 whatt if eu bear miie v l0ng ? ure tuiti0m centre is f0r th0se veryy guai dhen eu jiu can lidat say miie tarnish your reputation la ? nb , ii at thr v g00d gal lerhh lor ii didnt even create any trouble f0rhh eu la hor . zzz , even th0ugh im th noisest eu oso muz learn to REN ! tht is mye STYLE , y0u cannot change miie ^^

2009-02-13T05:25:00.000-08:00

t0day hubby gave miie a heart shape card so sweet ><> LOLS saw a ah ma stripped off infr0n miie =X clean th wind0w all tht chitchat wiv a ah ma ,, she t0ld miie many b0ut her reas0n beiin thr0w in thr . i h0pe thr is a retribution tuh th0se wh0 did tht tuh their ah ma / ah g0ng ! s0 evil . ! aft cso end ii cabbed dwn tuh sk00l c0s g0 wait hubby NCC finish dhen ii go play pingpongball machine w0n 2 pen <3 ne f0rhh hubby one f0rhh miie ^^

CKP , eu g0 flirt all eu wann , ii had alrdy BURNED our neoprints ! if eu think eu can distract miie from HIM eu DREAM ON !! ii n0w only c0ncentrate on him n0rt eu . .iihateyou !!

2009-02-13T05:03:00.000-08:00

haiis , yesterday didnt p0st c0s gusrdisn dhey all g0 sit th singapore flyer ): ii cnt g0 larhs cos of pr0batiion , somoremore dun0 when mye vpo coming tuh check me at h0me or nort )= ystd injured my back , thanks tuh freddie f00 !! wtf lor ii only hao xim wna return hin his thermometer dhen he slap my face(disturb nia) 0bviously ii will dulan dhen g0 chase him , when pulled his shirt luh he full speed ran off causing miie let go andd fly abit then hit th pillar nxt tuh th wall !! @#$%&*@+ !! id0t siia , ii laugh till cry , cry till laugh , DAMN PAIN ok !? ccb la =X a gentle t0uch ii os0 screm le l0r >.<

t0day , went tuh skool as usual =P hubby siick x( hart paiin siia ); dhen aft skool go slack awhile jiu g0 h0me change cos got CSO tsk , th old folk hm like damn far larhs ! still put lorong G so near my hse , walk till leg s0ur lohs reach thr tht time let th nurse ms agnes sign th f0rm , sian 60hour leh , how tuh c0pe ? happy valentine day in advance

2009-02-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

zzz t0day so siian went tuh sk0ol , m0rnink went tuh ge0r hse wake her up first dhen g0 mit mye bel0ved hubby at 333 . in class t0day super kinda FCUKED UPed bod0h , c0s t0day our class de mr TECK LEE kenna scold by ms salina dunno f0rhh what lahrs , when he came back ian koh some sort of lock the door lor , he so dulan shouted at th class . i fr0m hubby class thr walking back d0u cann ting da0 lor , dunn0 he eat wr0ng what medecine siia >.< aft sk0ol slack a while ^^ dhen ge0r go LRC dhen ii jiu pei val , huihui and li heng slack awhile jiu g0 grandlink play audi wif them a while =P aft tht g0 take 21 , when g0in reach eunos tht time ii cnt h0ld handrill cos too squeezy dhenn ii almost hold an aunty head =X ! hahas . .zzz 3 m0re day tuh valentine )= t0o badd mine was smashedd , s0bs =,( hubby g0t NCC thingy on friday cnt pei miie luh =( th kiss fr0m eu , ii felt tht hav a sense of security la dey ^^ it has been 2 days we are tgt <33>.<

2009-02-10T03:57:00.000-08:00

hell00s >< t0day abit boring siia , went tuh th parliament house listen dun0 th s0me sort of government ppl TC awhile , go in tht time still needa bow tuh them =X hahas morning went tuh meet HUBBY before he go tuh his NCC thing ^^ gave a real warm hug bef0re ii go up ge0r house >.< ilovehim ! bithches pls dun g0 near him bef0re ii d0 sth nice tuh ure face =X he is mine , love is like that , f0rever s0 selfish der (><) s0 funny laas when torking tuh hiim tht tym s0 damn cl0se >< haiis s0 sad ppl valentine day cann g0 out with b0yf galf / frens ....miie ? got tht idiot pgrm , ii w0uld like tuh wish everybody a happy valentine day in advance and last long f0r ppl wh0 hav stead <33>

2009-02-09T06:47:00.000-08:00

t0day went sko0l as usual l0rhs >< =X face="i accept eu lerhh hubby ! <3 lahrs ="X">

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2009-02-08T06:24:00.000-08:00

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2009-02-08T06:05:00.001-08:00

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